Selection of Lyrics
Warning: Explicit content24th Year 4/12/99
You know I know 6/10/99
Whore 15/7/99
This broken thing 26/6/99
Removal 22/6/99
Legacy 12/4/99
Skinside 11/4/99
Last Goodbye April 99
Passover Dec 98
Disappear 24/12/98
All © Flash Wilson 2004
24th Year
Failure. Is this what Ive become?
Is this what it all comes down to anymore?
Failure. Im turning numb.
I cannot see another day of loving anyone.
And now Im broken, and now Im broken,
NOW IM BROKEN, and now Im broken.
I cannot see another day of dragging myself on
To fight
But in my 24th year my 24th death is come
In my 24th year my 24th life is run
My 18th fuck is so far down
My 3rd and last love, burrowing down
In my 24th year, my 24th day is done.
Will you miss me? or just cadge for the will?
Is this all I amount to in your head?
Love me. Make me come.
I am just a hole for you, you utter, fucking, scum,
And now Im choking, and now Im choking
NOW IM CHOKING, and now Im choking
I cannot see myself with you unless I turn you on
Or cry
But in my 24th year my 24th death is come
In my 24th year my 24th life is run
My 18th fuck is so far down
My 3rd and last love, burrowing down
In my 24th year, my 24th day is done.
Failure. This is what Ive become..
You lead me into nothingness, Im hurting everyone
And now Im broken, and now Im broken
NOW IM BROKEN, Im breaking still...
You Know I Know
Youre the cruellest animal
You send me a wreath
It's hearts and flowers
Washed up on the beach
It's a phallus to remind me
Where you fucked me till I bled
It's set upon a sunset
That all has been stained red
It's water to remind me
Of the depths I came to fall
It's weakened so to show me
Theres nothing there at all
You know I know
Youre there inside
You know I know
We both want me to die
You know I know
You know I know
Who you're with tonight
You know I know
I've lost the fight
You know I know
We both want me to die
(maybe Ive read you all wrong,
Im sorry, youre my nothing, youre strong)
Whore
So what am I to you?
Just another mindless fucking... whore?
Everytime you plunge me deep inside until it burns
Does it remind you of the juice you just wasted?
Everytime you roughly pull apart my shaven lips
I hope it stings.. your.. skin..
We will decorate my body
With saliva and your semen... bleed?
Every baby you shook from the inside of its mother
Makes me feel just a tiny bit scared
Every time I let you in to taste my pretty arse
I want to shit.. on you.. too..
Everytime that I spreadeagle, waiting for your fangs
Your tearing fingers dug into my flesh
Everyone you've fucked, and everyone you wish I was
Are helping.. me.. die..
Run through the forest into my arms
I will rise up and make you respect... me?
You think that I am willing and you think that Im intense
Its the old fucking victim mentality
Well I will whip you till you're sore when it is all that you deserve
To see if you will beg like an animal
You fucking whore
This Broken Thing
WOULD IT BE SO WRONG TO SHOW YOURSELF TO ANYBODY?
WOULD IT BE SO HARD TO LET ME IN TO HOLD YOU?
WOULD IT BE SO BAD JUST TO LET YOURSELF GO?
YOU GIVE ME SO MUCH, YET YOU HOLD IT ALL IN…
YOU GIVE ME YOUR SEMEN IN YOUR BED
DON’T YOU THINK THATS PERSONAL?
SELECTED HIGHLIGHTS FROM YOUR HEAD
ISNT IT SO? DYOU WANT ME TO KNOW?
WOULD IT BE SO BAD TO OWN ME?
WOULD IT HURT SO MUCH TO LET ME IN?
DO YOU NEED NOTHING IN LIFE, TRULY
ITS YOUR WEAKNESS. YOU THINK ITS A STRENGTH…
BUT WHO TOLD YOU YOU HAD TO BE STRONG?
WHAT EVIL BITCH HAS DESTROYED YOU?
YOURE MY FILLING. MY SOUL IS UNDONE.
COME OUT, LET ME BE THE ONE AFRAID FOR YOU…
YOU GIVE ME YOUR SEMEN IN YOUR BED
DONT YOU THINK THATS PERSONAL?
YOU WANT TO PLAY YOUR GAMES
WELL IM TELLING YOU, PLAY ONLY WITH ME…
ARE YOU JUST SO COLD YOU COULD JUST LET GO
I REALLY DON’T THINK YOU CAN DO THAT
WHAT DO YOU SEE IN ME THAT YOU DONT WANT TO HOLD?
YOUD MISS ME? I REALLY DONT THINK…
IF YOU MAKE ME WAIT THEN I WILL BE
ITS THE ONLY THING IN LIFE KEEPS ME OPEN
YOU KNOW WHERE TO FIND ME, WHILE I AM ALIVE
AND YOU WILL KNOW WHERE TO FIND ME, IF I HAVE BEEN BROKEN
Removal
Theres a girl trapped in a box
Wants to remove herself from you
The marks you left have gone from grey to brown
And still she needs you inside
She comes to comfort you
She comes to worship your skin
She thinks she makes your flesh crawl
She should remove herself from you
This is not about you. Dont take it that.
Not about the way she feels
Its all that stuff thats trapped
To let the hurt bleed makes her feel real
But in removing herself
She saves you from the shit she can deal
She will fuck your inner mind
She lets the worms escape
The box is shattered, shes in shackles
Still the victims are found
She never wanted all of this
Just needed something to fill her holes
Her maggot riddled skin
Is full of sores, where she let you in
She can only see one way to free you
She can only feel one truth
Its all that stuff thats holding her back
To let the blood flow makes the hurt go
But in removing herself
She saves herself from facing her fears
Deludes herself shes taking it away
Removes herself to try to make you stay
Needs you, feels you
Wishes she didnt have to throw it all away...
Legacy
I come to you dressed in white (like a veil)
You push me away to hang
I come to you ready to give (of myself)
You brush me away like a tear
But Im not that slight…
Leave me your legacy
Semen thread on my lips
Blood traced on the sheets
My sore swollen kiss
Leave me your legacy
Windows of sweat
Leave me your soul
But leave me your stain…
Leave me your legacy
Your hair in my bed
My skin in your nails
Your scars in my flesh
Leave me your legacy
Your urgent sharp pain
Leave me your soul
But leave me your stain…
And I feel you pull away (holding back)
You push me away to hang
I come to take your breath away (I wish)
You make me just stop breathing
And now Im lost to myself…
Skinside
A rare treat - A man to turn me on
A man knows restraint - A man with perfect touch
A rare treat - A man makes me want him
For domination - Leaves me wanting more
But I DONT JUST WANT your bruises on my chest
I DONT JUST WANT our legs bound up in sweat
I DONT JUST WANT your teeth on my neck
I want more than skinside
Theres NOTHING IN ME relates to you
And TOO MUCH YOU know how to do
WHAT CAN I TELL a man like you
I wanna be burnt inside
A piece of meat - A man who wont kiss
Wont let me in - Frustrates every wish
And I DONT JUST WANT your dick on my tongue
DONT JUST WANT to know that you've come
I DONT JUST WANT your memories undone
I want more than skinside
Theres NOTHING I WANT from your careful bite
I DONT JUST WANT a single night
DONT JUST LEAVE ME, the hope that you might
I want you inside of me
Inside
Ill have your inside in me.
Last Goodbye
And all I want is to be dead
And all the voices in my head
And all I fight for, all I feel
It feels like it was never real
And all I want is to let go
All I want is to never know
How it would have been if Id stayed
What it was that made me afraid
But all that matters now
Is you
And all I get is goodbye…
So one last ritual, one last drink
One last chalice, and needle and ink
Drink to the rhythm of your soul
Drink to the pulse of your heart
Drink deeper, deeper
Deeper for the last goodbye
I had to do this, had to be here
But how much does it have to hurt before its real?
So one last ritual, one last drink
One last chalice, and needle and ink
Drink to the rhythm of your soul
Drink to the pulse of your heart
Drink deeper, deeper
Deeper for the last goodbye
Passover
Ill take you deep inside
Ill keep you safe and tight
I wanna feel your lips upon my thighs
Ill let you in my lair
I need you waiting there
I wanna feel you brush my lips with your hair
Ill hear you scream for air
Ill keep you choking there
If you cant break the surface then youre gonna have to tear
Oh I will screw your brain
Ill be your pain and suffocate
(Just to do it all over again)
DAUB MY BLOOD UPON YOUR DOOR
AND FOR MY NEXT TRICK I WILL PASS YOU OVER
ITS NOT ABOUT LOVE, NOT ABOUT LUST
NO ITS NOT ABOUT YOU AT ALL
Ill keep you up all night
Come inside me, deep and tight
Youve never known me at all
YOU ARE NOT THE CHOSEN ONE
YOU ARE NOT THE CHOSEN ONE
WE COULD HAVE A THREESOME ALL NIGHT
JUST YOU AND ME AND YOUR GOD
Daub my blood upon your throat
And forever, bond as mine
Disappear
You like to disappear
Like water like salt like sun like freedom
Like blonde
And I like concrete
Yes I like concrete
Like security routine like city like food like sex
I go home to someone else [Let me spread...]
If you had someone else Id go mad [Let me spread...]
Ive got everyone [Let me spread...]
Youve got my empty words [Let me spread...]
Spaces where Im not [Let me spread...]
Oh times Im mindless somewhere else
And times Im reminded of you
I cant do that, cant do that to you
The love I never myself had [Let me spread…]
The hurt I never saw coming [Let me spread…]
The space I always needed filling [Let me spread…]
The words I grabbed [Let me spread…]
The bareness you left [Let me spread…]
How could I do that back to you?
You like to disappear, like to disappear
Like water like salt like sun like freedom
Like blonde
And I like concrete
I like security routine like city like food like sex
Security, routine, like city, like food, like sex
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